The Recovery: From Psychosis To Full Functionality

(To establish the proper context for this blog entry, please read The Meltdown: Decompensating Into A Psychotic Break)

2 Years Ago...

6 weeks after getting on the 4 medications that were combined to bring me back to reality (2 anit-psychotics...Seroquel & Risperidone, 1 anti-anxiety...Ativan,  and 1 anti-depressant/anti-anxiety...Zoloft), I began to see the light of day. Most importantly, sleep returned and with this a desire to participate in life. Simultaneously, all the paranoia and delusions fell away. Recovery had begun. But this recovery went through stages. 

Stage 1: Dealing with Embarrassment, Shame and Fear of the Unknown.

Working hand in hand with the meds, while still in Ohio, I found a phenomenal psychologist to work with. He was incredibly educated, supportive, encouraging and practical; giving me simple daily tasks to accomplish as hope returned. I attempted to get up early every day, eat breakfast, and do some sort of exercise (be it a light jog or...

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My Existential Crisis

My Existential Crisis

Today you’re going to get some of the bad and the ugly of what lead to my breakdown.

For my entire adult life, I had absolutely no real interest in having a child of my own. In fact, the thought of it, made me cringe. Whenever I heard a child cry, it was like nails on a chalk board to me. I remember thinking, I can’t quite understand why anyone would choose that as a life path. My mindset was that as soon have a child, your own life is over as you know it.

I could go on and on but I think you get the extreme resistance I had created in my mind and there was some serious armor around my heart because of it. I was pretty clear on what I wanted in life and it didn’t include children.

Then I met Liz and something in me felt a little differently. But for both of us if it was going to happen, the thought was that it would be a few years down the road. However, as life would have it, 4 months into our relationship (the day after my 47th birthday) we...

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A Birth Story: Dad's-Eye View

This is a birth story. It’s a dad’s-eye view of what it was like to experience the labor and delivery of your first child. I can tell you in advance that it has strengthened my belief that nature knew what it was doing when it set it up in a way that women would be the ones to birth babies. Why?

Because most men couldn’t handle it. Period. I don’t know about you, but if I get a cold, I milk it for all it’s worth. You would think the end of the world was near. I’m betting you might know a man or two or three like this.

So I’m going to make a big statement. In this man’s humble opinion, women are the stronger sex and it’s time we acknowledge this. It’s my hope that this story serves to support this view.

But I digress. Before we dive into the labor side of this story, I’d like to give you a little background context. Due to the events of last year, (read more about them in my blog “My Trip On A...

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Breakdown To Breakthrough

Welcome to my world!  My name is Adam Michael Brewer and at the age of 48, I’m a first-time father to an amazing 3 month old son named Skye.  It’s been a wild ride getting to this point and continues to be so. But I couldn’t be happier right now. Everyday is something new.

It’s here that I’ll share my stories about the trials & tribulations of becoming a first-time father. I grew up in Ohio but have lived in LA for 22 action-packed years now. So these days, I Live And Dad In LA. One thing’s for sure, I made lots of mistakes along the way but have learned so much from each experience. It’s my intention to share some of the wisdom I’ve gained as well as keep you up to date with the new adventures I’m having with Skye and my amazing partner @lizarch (Skye’s momma). Thanks for joining me!

For some, being a first-time father at 48 doesn’t sound like a big deal. There are those men out there that have...

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